Wow!

Last night was my 1st day back to yoga since December 18th.

On December 18th, I had had the most amazing class to date. Everything was flowing with my postures, breathing and concentration.

Due to the Holidays and then the suicide of my man's Dad on NYE, things got crazy and I was not able to make it to yoga til last night. Of course I was extremely worried and scared I would have a rough class, but I was pleasantly surprised!

During 2nd part of awkward, I fell on my butt (first time it's ever happened) and was completely embarrassed! However, I got up and kept going. The class went very well and I was amazed at how my body just remembered and knew what it was supposed to do. My leg got the most parallel to the floor during triangle... I think I'm close to moving the arms for the full position. I was even able to do camel, but in the 2nd set, I wasn't able to hold it the full time... and I sat out the first rabbit, due to being so dizzy from camel. Overall, it was really good!

My man also tells me that it's possible that with all the growing I've done and all emotional stuff that has happened these past two weeks, that I may be mentally stronger than ever and that maybe that's why. I didn't even think about this!

Jenny was amazing and told me what I needed to hear. She always has the perfect thing to say. Pretty much said everything I already knew; that I when things get hard and I don't feel like I have the energy or will to do it, to just come in and do it, even if I struggle. She is always kind. After class she told me I did good and I told her how amazed I was at how well I did. I said, "It really is all in your mind" and she agreed. She gave me her # and told me to call her if I need to have her help me get in there.

I get so mad at myself when I don't do yoga for long periods of time. My excuses are that I'm tired, or busy or just don't have the energy, even though I KNOW FULL WELL I'll feel better just getting in there.

Just gotta keep going back... over and over.